The dreamer
I fumbled, I fell, I lost my way
As a dreamer in this chaotic world.
you laughed at every step of mine
enjoyed my mistake
taunted my imperfection.
told me am not worth it
worth any of it at all...
I fumbled, I fell, I lost my way
to some naive dreams that never came true
slayed into the hands of reality
you laughed everytime I lost.
I fumbled, I fell, I lost my way
Caught in the viscious cycle of life
bound from my right to live
in the name of inglorious traditions.
Shame on you, for holding me back
for today I break my chains and fly
Shame on you, you prejudiced bastards
who hold back the dreams of dreamers like me,
yet to come true...
I may have fumbled, I may have fallen,
I may seem to have lost my way
But I know where am headed
in this chaotic world,
as a dreamer, I walk my way...
Monday, February 7, 2011
Thursday, February 3, 2011
The lost soul
Just as i was talking to a friend of mine i realized how much had happened in my life in such a little time. So much that i hardly find time to catch up with my own life these days. Be it enjoying with friends, managing things at home, or slogging my ass out at college. But everything said and done a part of me within still seemed incomplete. A part of my soul, which i seem to have lost in the due course of a battleship. A part of my soul which I am just not able to find. And thats when I realised how much I missed the time I used to spend writing. And I thought what better way to start again than to write about whatever has been keeping me pre-occupied all these days. This might not be one of my best works, but it definitely is an important one. Yes, I am back on the pursuit I once began...
Life sure has taken a lot of turns. Things changed, situations changed and so did people. But one things that never changed were those naive dreams I once lived with. The thirst for the applause, the sound of those cheers. The bright spot light that used to gleam in my eyes. Ah! Still seems like yesterday when I recieved my last prize. Being so used to the limelight, suddenly being just "anybody" became very difficult. When I entered wilsons, I entered with the dream of living up to everything I had expected out of myself. Life out here sure did have a great start. With friends I can have none better and the endless fun making college a perpetual carnival I believed I couldnt ask for anything more. But the sudden silence made everyone ponder what exactly is going wrong. Sure most of us landed in IT without the intention of being here. But was that all it was? Thinking still deeper we realised that it was the fact that none of us have been living the dream we carried when we entered the college. At least I was sure I was not. From guitar classes to theatre to writing, everything seemed incomplete. All because I had lost faith in myself because of some silly things in the past. I've had my dose of regrets for making those decisions. But do they have to go along with me further enough to savage my dreams? And so today I built up the courage to talk to a friend. To build up the strength to forgive myself. To find a way to my dreams. To make sure I reach where I've always wanted to be. And I sure will one day. For I have an amazing family to support me till then. To make me laugh when I am sad, lift my spirits up when I am down. Or to just give me an ear when I seem so very lost and confused. I do have a wonderful family called "friends".
Life sure has taken a lot of turns. Things changed, situations changed and so did people. But one things that never changed were those naive dreams I once lived with. The thirst for the applause, the sound of those cheers. The bright spot light that used to gleam in my eyes. Ah! Still seems like yesterday when I recieved my last prize. Being so used to the limelight, suddenly being just "anybody" became very difficult. When I entered wilsons, I entered with the dream of living up to everything I had expected out of myself. Life out here sure did have a great start. With friends I can have none better and the endless fun making college a perpetual carnival I believed I couldnt ask for anything more. But the sudden silence made everyone ponder what exactly is going wrong. Sure most of us landed in IT without the intention of being here. But was that all it was? Thinking still deeper we realised that it was the fact that none of us have been living the dream we carried when we entered the college. At least I was sure I was not. From guitar classes to theatre to writing, everything seemed incomplete. All because I had lost faith in myself because of some silly things in the past. I've had my dose of regrets for making those decisions. But do they have to go along with me further enough to savage my dreams? And so today I built up the courage to talk to a friend. To build up the strength to forgive myself. To find a way to my dreams. To make sure I reach where I've always wanted to be. And I sure will one day. For I have an amazing family to support me till then. To make me laugh when I am sad, lift my spirits up when I am down. Or to just give me an ear when I seem so very lost and confused. I do have a wonderful family called "friends".
The dawn of a timeline...
Gleaming fireworks brighten the sky
marking another year that just passed by.
How much the times have changed
from crimson red to deep blue.
People come and people walk by
some stay for a reason, season
and yet some, promise a life time.
Truth crushed under prejudices
and naive fairy tales savaged.
Lives lived behind masks
yet dreamers like me still dreamt.
An era of a paradoxical life, people and soul...
Another year of helpless tantrums
Another year pain
Some felt, some lost and some gained.
Of smiles passed from face to face.
Of lessons needed to be learnt
and yet some in vain.
Of empty books
and unwritten stories
Of triumphant battles without armours...
And here I stand at the dawn of another timeline
bruised, but still through.
I've seen the colours of my sky changing
from crimson red to deep blue.
marking another year that just passed by.
How much the times have changed
from crimson red to deep blue.
People come and people walk by
some stay for a reason, season
and yet some, promise a life time.
Truth crushed under prejudices
and naive fairy tales savaged.
Lives lived behind masks
yet dreamers like me still dreamt.
An era of a paradoxical life, people and soul...
Another year of helpless tantrums
Another year pain
Some felt, some lost and some gained.
Of smiles passed from face to face.
Of lessons needed to be learnt
and yet some in vain.
Of empty books
and unwritten stories
Of triumphant battles without armours...
And here I stand at the dawn of another timeline
bruised, but still through.
I've seen the colours of my sky changing
from crimson red to deep blue.
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